bliss glimpse

redirect your mind to that first glimpse of bliss
when revelation was your reality
when your soul prayed in tongues

do you recall?

this fascination with the beginning
is not new for me
i remember my first real memory

i remember it being so surreal
or actually hyper-real
the realest ive ever felt
im still chasing that reality

i was on vacation in cairo
in my dokki building
going down the stairs
running down with an enthusiasm that only a 5 year old can posses
until i reached the entrance of our building

and on my way out
there is a mirror to the left of me
and a few more steps
this is when i got a flash of what i can only describe as

utter consciousness

i was so in the moment and there
i looked at myself in the mirror to my left
and saw myself for the first time

i was astonished, surprised, happy and a little confused
it was as if i was marveling at God's magnificence in my image
and his generosity for giving me the capacity to experience all this life

i gazed at myself for some moments more
it seemed like forever though, at the time

then i looked down at the remaining steps
and again lifted my head but looked straight ahead this time
my eyes met the street outside where there is a mosque

the call to prayer for Duhr was ringing
and the afternoon sun looked magnificent to me

i felt a surge of joy
the best high ive ever experienced
im still chasing it

and i remember asking myself
"what is this?"
i had heard my inner voice many times before
but never like this

the rush of euphoria had me deciding then and there
to leap the remaining steps
as if to celebrate my coming to life

i love that moment
like i was telling the world "look out, im crashing the party!"