Too Proud

pure

what is that really?

i know I'm partially to blame
always being attracted to doomed relationships
and hopes ajar........

I'm too proud of my masochism
letting it ring throughout my life - with a wounding resonance
that is manipulative, yet essentially pure....

i know that somehow, sometime from under all the noise
the gem will shine brilliantly
never to dim or be forgotten.....

my beautiful woes will reveal themselves as ecstatic beings of light and smokeless fire

... guiding many